Living between "Yes" or "NO"...!

An urge to go out of everything! Daily activities for daily wage! Neither a single twist, nor even a monotonous expectation! Hope this is the chaos lies in between all of us after reaching a certain stage. During childhood, a small humble of becoming makes everything possible. The completion of study that creates a yearn to get a job makes even the toughest thing to be possible. Once settled creates a feeling of complete satisfaction… But, is it life? What is settling? Who can be called as settled? Can a live stream human being settle at one place? A job which created the feeling of complete settlement becomes meaningless after it reaches the hands. Same work, same people, imagining being free on one, expecting for that free day and planning to enjoy that free day makes the worker to work despite of his designation. But, when the same imagination becomes true/real….! When the reality stands with plenty of free time…? Then, what to do? Am I able to fulfill all those plans? This question never gets the answer… because, the plan, which was made in accordance with the free time earlier, loses its meaning. The time which we thought that we will get will move on even without informing us. Not a big thing, just think of a day to be spent at Movie Theater can easily pass off with your laziness to get up or with the closure of ticket booking. Then, whets the meaning of life??? Who is planning it? Can’t we really plan it? If we plan, then who will change it? When there’s some commitment or inevitability, we will not miss the work. Then does our inevitability plans our life. As a popular poet says “life is something where we always urge for getting something by leaving everything we are having”. After each day completes, just try to note your work of the day? Does everyday gives at least something special? The days those look special will never allow us to write. Because we’ll be on the tip of the hill where we think that, we don’t require anyone/anything. Then, for whom we are living? For our friends, family? Or for ourselves? If it’s for ourselves, then why we loneliness? Why we want someone everyday to share about us? Ah! If we are living for our friends/family, then why we always think about ourselves first? I still remember few people saying that, I am still surviving for sake someone… Is it true? Is it really possible to live for someone? Is it definite that, someone is that much qualified? Don’t know! The life which looks meaningless one day will suddenly get color with a smallest moment. The emptiness completely wipes out and glitters with the gloms of hope. But, which is the real one? The meaninglessness or colorful gloms? Meaningless creates loneliness and allows to create a new urge or to understand ourselves. Whereas, the colorful gloms bring all at us and makes us to understand what others are thinking about us and also arouses a spirit to live further. What should be preferred? Is it really possible to break this monotonous tone? How to break it? If we break, then where does it lead? To heaven! Or to the too dark hell… Whatever, I felt, I have written, Please feel free to comment about what u felt in return...